Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in waste_yourself's LiveJournal:

Thursday, February 8th, 2007
12:19 am	Inspire Me - S.L. Inspire me to see All that I can be I want to live for the best And make my dreams come true I am still figuring out who I want to be Making final decisions in the next months That could determine my life Its scary but I am up for the challenge Inspire me to see Give me some guidance From up Above me To see what I will be Teaching is amazing, its the best feeling in the world When your students understand it You've reached your goal Teaching is horrifying, its can be the worst feeling If you cannot reach your students and  If you cannot make them understand You will feel like a failure Everyday will be a challenge Teaching is about politics and money The headaches that come with the good times Yet when you look at child's face and  You have changed their life That is priceless and worth the struggles Yea I know getting there is part of the struggle I just got to work harder in my journey to see Inspire me to see Give me some guidance From up Above me To see what I will be Art is amazing and magical Making a portrait look like a photograph is stunning We can learn a lot from artists From the time period to the emotions to the events I have an appreciation for art and I want to show that Making students appreciate the past and watching them gain an understanding is amazing Art also gives an undertanding of history We learn through readings and through lectures Yet have you ever looked into the past through a painting? Making your own interpretations is awesome Art is a creative, expressive, and moving experience I just have to work harder to see where I will be Life is scary sometimes You do not know which way to go You can not seem to find your way Take your time and look around Appreciate the things we have And work towards the things we do not have Laugh about stupid things and shrug off bad things Let bad experiences affect you for a time Then let them go and see your line Get back on track and know where you stand We are only given one shot So tell the truth, be caring, be creative, expressive, fun, care-free, laugh, love, do what you can, take chances, be scared, try new things, open up to other people, be open-minded, and be yourself. (Comment on this)
12:03 am	February 8, 2007 Im Laughing Now - S.L. Ive got this smile on my face The smirk you used to see Im laughing now  Its funny how things work out You used to make me smile with your words Now you make me laugh with your actions Im laughing now Cuz karma worked this time around Ill just hang here and let it run you to the ground Im laughing now Vivid Alpha is what I see Its what I will work towards A new me One that doesnt trust easily And walks around carefully Ill take my time and work hard My goals are what drive me I will accomplish them With my head held high And a smirk on my face Im laughing now It feels good Maybe with time you can see I wish you could see what I saw But now that is all gone My thoughts of you were false You put up a front and I believed But now I see you for who you are Im laughing now cuz you wont get far (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 7th, 2007
9:57 am	February 7, 2007   I learned the TRUTH­ – S.L.   I can’t believe you would do that I can’t believe you weren’t strong enough To come clean about how you felt It proves to me that you are a liar With no balls to be honest You have no sympathy and no remorse But I guess I can expect that from you The words 'I told you so' will never leave my mouth Cuz you know you fucked up and that’s enough It could’ve been avoided if you just spoke up I could’ve moved on with the truth Yet your lie put me through so much I'm amazed at what humans can do I learned the truth and it hurts more than the lie So thanks girl for making me see How pathetic u truly can be It ends tonight with nothing more in sight I wish u luck on ur quest in life And remember to think about the future U got what u deserved girl What goes around came around to u It ends here tonight     February 6, 2007   Drink It ALL Away Girl – S.L.   You’re drinking your life away Cuz you don’t wanna feel your emotions You’re drinking your life away Cuz you don’t wanna feel anything real You’re drinking your life away And your heart is like a stone of ice I don’t think anyone can break through You have no compassion, no warmth, and no truth You will never suffice to anyone You drink to forget your emotions You said you cared, yet you never did Well I beg to differ with that So pretend like nothings wrong That what you did was okay You are the most hypocritical person I have ever met And in case you don’t know what that means You are a pretender and a liar You say one thing and do another     February 5, 2007   I HOPE he was WORTH it – S.L.   I hope he was worth it One night of pleasure and u LOST it I’m laughing now cuz u ain't worth it U are not good enough for me and never will be I gave u a second chance I trusted and believed u U are a liar and a CHEATER I can’t believe I trusted u U are such a good ACTRESS Go to Hollywood and do something with ur life Well I am laughing now Cuz I am the best u ever had And U will realize someday how bad u fucked up When that day comes I won’t be here for u Ill be gone and away from u   All Those Wasted Nights – S.L.   We used to stay up late All night and enjoy each others voice You told me how much you liked me And how much you cared for me We used to stay up late And not want to leave each other You told me we could have something good That we could be good for each other We used to stay up late But now you’ve changed your mind And now you’ve gone away Your heart is so cold girl   I’ve wasted so much time with you I’ve wasted so many emotions with you I wonder if you will ever know what you really did You made me think that we could’ve had it all You showed me what its like to be hurt Down to the core and to the heart I have never felt so much pain until now You were a mistake but I do not regret you You taught me something that cannot be learned Unless you experience what I have gone through   Someday someone will waste your time They will lead you on into thinking so much All of which was a lie You played with my emotions girl You made me think so many things I hope you had fun with this game Because I am so done December 13, 2006 Tearing Me Down - S.L. This business is tearing us apart Its tearing me apart and breaking me down Im tired of the arguments and of the pain Sometimes I wish we never had it Everyday theres something new He argues and yells and stomps out the door He cant deal with his emotions anymore He leaves us behind and runs away But always returns more calm in some way He wont listen to a single word He'll run away like a bird We try to reason with him, to get him to stop Yet theres no stopping what hes doing He is hurting everyone around him He cannot control his anger and he is hurting everyone This business is tearing us apart Its breaking us down slowly You said you would never do it again Yet you have We will catch you And make you see This pain you have caused is unbearable I cant stand to see where you'd be without us The fighting is as much as I can bear The worrying everyday and the constant struggle Please tell me this will end any day May 2, 2006 You Lied To Me, To Us - S.L. I trusted you You were my friend We had good times together I had your back when no one did I was the only one you could turn to Then you went and fucked up You lied about something horrible Something that you should've never done I went with you that night when everyone said I shouldn't I trusted that you were right I was completely wrong I can't be your friend anymore You stressed us all out Living with you was hell You would find something to argue about every day I still gave you a chance and another chance You fucked with my friends I had to stop them from going after you You spent the night alone Now get the fuck out of my life I dont need you   April 9, 2006   Mixed Emotions – S.L.   Your tearing me up again Why can't things just be simple I feel like I'm suffocating Things are so hard Why did I turn out this way My life could have gone the other way Instead this is what I was given So now I have to deal with it Sometimes I wish it could be easier But living tough means you grow up fast Sometimes people don’t get to see the real me Who has gone through so much Yet feels to have attained so little I wouldn't change any of it It has all made me stronger Left me a more determined person To want to live, to appreciate To see all the little things in life The moon, the sky, birds, grass Someone's smile, laughter The way things shape a room Paintings, books, people Yes its a lot to take in And yes people don't want to grow up Well I have in a short time And I wouldn't change it I'm ready to face these challenges To see what else God has in store for me What tomorrow may bring We shall see           (Comment on this)