waste_yourself

waste_yourself @ 2007-02-08T00:19:00

2007-02-08T05:39:07Z

Inspire Me - S.L.

Inspire me to see
All that I can be
I want to live for the best
And make my dreams come true
I am still figuring out who I want to be
Making final decisions in the next months
That could determine my life
Its scary but I am up for the challenge

Inspire me to see
Give me some guidance
From up Above me
To see what I will be

Teaching is amazing, its the best feeling in the world
When your students understand it
You've reached your goal
Teaching is horrifying, its can be the worst feeling
If you cannot reach your students and
If you cannot make them understand
You will feel like a failure
Everyday will be a challenge
Teaching is about politics and money
The headaches that come with the good times
Yet when you look at child's face and
You have changed their life
That is priceless and worth the struggles
Yea I know getting there is part of the struggle
I just got to work harder in my journey to see

Inspire me to see
Give me some guidance
From up Above me
To see what I will be

Art is amazing and magical
Making a portrait look like a photograph is stunning
We can learn a lot from artists
From the time period to the emotions to the events
I have an appreciation for art and I want to show that
Making students appreciate the past and watching
them gain an understanding is amazing
Art also gives an undertanding of history
We learn through readings and through lectures
Yet have you ever looked into the past through a painting?
Making your own interpretations is awesome
Art is a creative, expressive, and moving experience
I just have to work harder to see where I will be

Life is scary sometimes
You do not know which way to go
You can not seem to find your way
Take your time and look around
Appreciate the things we have
And work towards the things we do not have
Laugh about stupid things and shrug off bad things
Let bad experiences affect you for a time
Then let them go and see your line
Get back on track and know where you stand
We are only given one shot
So tell the truth, be caring, be creative, expressive, fun, care-free, laugh, love, do what you can, take chances, be scared, try new things, open up to other people, be open-minded, and be yourself.

waste_yourself @ 2007-02-08T00:03:00

2007-02-08T05:19:06Z

February 8, 2007

Im Laughing Now - S.L.

Ive got this smile on my face
The smirk you used to see
Im laughing now
Its funny how things work out
You used to make me smile with your words
Now you make me laugh with your actions
Im laughing now
Cuz karma worked this time around
Ill just hang here and let it run you to the ground
Im laughing now
Vivid Alpha is what I see
Its what I will work towards
A new me
One that doesnt trust easily
And walks around carefully
Ill take my time and work hard
My goals are what drive me
I will accomplish them
With my head held high
And a smirk on my face
Im laughing now
It feels good
Maybe with time you can see
I wish you could see what I saw
But now that is all gone
My thoughts of you were false
You put up a front and I believed
But now I see you for who you are
Im laughing now cuz you wont get far

waste_yourself @ 2007-02-07T09:57:00

2007-02-08T03:13:45Z

February 7, 2007

I learned the TRUTH – S.L.

I can’t believe you would do that

I can’t believe you weren’t strong enough

To come clean about how you felt

It proves to me that you are a liar

With no balls to be honest

You have no sympathy and no remorse

But I guess I can expect that from you

The words 'I told you so' will never leave my mouth

Cuz you know you fucked up and that’s enough

It could’ve been avoided if you just spoke up

I could’ve moved on with the truth

Yet your lie put me through so much

I'm amazed at what humans can do

I learned the truth and it hurts more than the lie

So thanks girl for making me see

How pathetic u truly can be

It ends tonight with nothing more in sight

I wish u luck on ur quest in life

And remember to think about the future

U got what u deserved girl

What goes around came around to u

It ends here tonight

February 6, 2007

Drink It ALL Away Girl – S.L.

You’re drinking your life away

Cuz you don’t wanna feel your emotions

You’re drinking your life away

Cuz you don’t wanna feel anything real

You’re drinking your life away

And your heart is like a stone of ice

I don’t think anyone can break through

You have no compassion, no warmth, and no truth

You will never suffice to anyone

You drink to forget your emotions

You said you cared, yet you never did

Well I beg to differ with that

So pretend like nothings wrong

That what you did was okay

You are the most hypocritical person I have ever met

And in case you don’t know what that means

You are a pretender and a liar

You say one thing and do another

February 5, 2007

I HOPE he was WORTH it – S.L.

I hope he was worth it

One night of pleasure and u LOST it

I’m laughing now cuz u ain't worth it

U are not good enough for me and never will be

I gave u a second chance

I trusted and believed u

U are a liar and a CHEATER

I can’t believe I trusted u

U are such a good ACTRESS

Go to Hollywood and do something with ur life

Well I am laughing now

Cuz I am the best u ever had

And U will realize someday how bad u fucked up

When that day comes I won’t be here for u

Ill be gone and away from u

All Those Wasted Nights – S.L.

We used to stay up late

All night and enjoy each others voice

You told me how much you liked me

And how much you cared for me

We used to stay up late

And not want to leave each other

You told me we could have something good

That we could be good for each other

We used to stay up late

But now you’ve changed your mind

And now you’ve gone away

Your heart is so cold girl

I’ve wasted so much time with you

I’ve wasted so many emotions with you

I wonder if you will ever know what you really did

You made me think that we could’ve had it all

You showed me what its like to be hurt

Down to the core and to the heart

I have never felt so much pain until now

You were a mistake but I do not regret you

You taught me something that cannot be learned

Unless you experience what I have gone through

Someday someone will waste your time

They will lead you on into thinking so much

All of which was a lie

You played with my emotions girl

You made me think so many things

I hope you had fun with this game

Because I am so done

December 13, 2006

Tearing Me Down - S.L.

This business is tearing us apart
Its tearing me apart and breaking me down
Im tired of the arguments and of the pain
Sometimes I wish we never had it
Everyday theres something new
He argues and yells and stomps out the door
He cant deal with his emotions anymore
He leaves us behind and runs away
But always returns more calm in some way
He wont listen to a single word
He'll run away like a bird
We try to reason with him, to get him to stop
Yet theres no stopping what hes doing
He is hurting everyone around him
He cannot control his anger and he is hurting everyone
This business is tearing us apart
Its breaking us down slowly
You said you would never do it again
Yet you have
We will catch you
And make you see
This pain you have caused is unbearable
I cant stand to see where you'd be without us
The fighting is as much as I can bear
The worrying everyday and the constant struggle
Please tell me this will end any day

May 2, 2006

You Lied To Me, To Us - S.L.

I trusted you
You were my friend
We had good times together
I had your back when no one did
I was the only one you could turn to
Then you went and fucked up
You lied about something horrible
Something that you should've never done
I went with you that night when everyone said I shouldn't
I trusted that you were right
I was completely wrong
I can't be your friend anymore
You stressed us all out
Living with you was hell
You would find something to argue about every day
I still gave you a chance and another chance
You fucked with my friends
I had to stop them from going after you
You spent the night alone
Now get the fuck out of my life
I dont need you

April 9, 2006

Mixed Emotions – S.L.

Your tearing me up again
Why can't things just be simple
I feel like I'm suffocating
Things are so hard
Why did I turn out this way
My life could have gone the other way
Instead this is what I was given
So now I have to deal with it
Sometimes I wish it could be easier
But living tough means you grow up fast
Sometimes people don’t get to see the real me
Who has gone through so much
Yet feels to have attained so little
I wouldn't change any of it
It has all made me stronger

Left me a more determined person
To want to live, to appreciate
To see all the little things in life
The moon, the sky, birds, grass
Someone's smile, laughter
The way things shape a room
Paintings, books, people
Yes its a lot to take in
And yes people don't want to grow up
Well I have in a short time
And I wouldn't change it
I'm ready to face these challenges
To see what else God has in store for me
What tomorrow may bring
We shall see